I thought I'd dodged them

I'd been warned of the epic drop of hormones following the birth. Days went past and I honestly just felt on an adrenaline high! I thought I'd dodged the infamous baby blues... until they hit me 😐. Random bursts of uncontrollable crying! If my partner said the slightest thing that I could take the wrong way... uh oh. It honestly really scared me because I have a history of anxiety/depression (thankfully have been out of the woods for a few years now), but it was like a trigger and brought back feelings of hopelessness that I hadn't experienced in a long time. My catastrophising way of thinking crept back and in my mind I was heading towards being divorced and homeless with a baby 🤦🏻‍♀️. I knew I was being irrational but I couldn't seem to completely reason my way out and the tears just kept on coming. Thankfully, eventually these feelings subsided but my god I hadn't felt so out of control of my emotions in years!